Manifestations, Full Speed Ahead!

I woke up this morning loving me some CSL. When I think back to my life one year ago, prior to taking the leap and actually going in to see what this "not quite a church, but a community?" was all about, I'm astounded to see the growth and joy that I feel in such a short period of time. A year ago, I was in a job that I had outgrown, in a relationship that was slowly but surely ending, and my oldest friend was wasting away from AIDS and running out of T-cells. I knew I had to make some tough decisions, and as one by one I let go of the job, of the partner, of the friend, I wondered if I was making the right choice, was being led to a better place.

With some healing and some perspective, I absolutely was being led to a better place, where I am today. It seems that sometimes the rockiest roads lead to the best destinations. I wanted to share with everyone some of the things I see showing up in my life, wonderful things, as a result of 4T's I hope you all do the same!

• On Monday, after class, my little MINI got stuck in the snow. I spent 15 minutes going back and forth, making very little progress and trying not to get completely frustrated. Out of the night came someone who, on a cold winters night, offered to give me a shove to get me out of the rut I was in. He shoved, and I was able to go home. Sometimes you can't do it all by yourself.....
• My ex and I have had a difficult time making the transition to "friends". He sent me an email this morning inviting me to his birthday party.
• A friend who I have not seen in a while called out of the blue and we are having dinner Sunday night.

I have been thinking a lot about something that Edwene Gaines said when she visited CSL last year. When she made the decision to begin tithing , she said to God "Prove yourself to me! You've got six months!". For me, I feel the opposite is true. God has been proving itself to me my whole life, in every breath that I take, in every step that I take, in the tears that I sometimes cry. In my friendships. In my work, which I love and was called to do. In all the abundance I see whenever I open my eyes fully to take it all in. This class is my chance to return the favor, to prove to God that I finally get it, that I know I am divinely Sourced, always have been, always will be. I am filled with gratitude for getting it, and having so much more time in my life to Prove It Back.

I am keeping all you Big Time Jedis in my thoughts and prayers as we go through our week.

Brad